The Town Crier

I assure you I am fine. WE are just short of perfect. It was NEVER an issue. Private matters sometime become public. Even though I asked for discretion, I shouldn't have expected it. That is why EVERYONE is on a need to know bases. I appreciate the concern. I know it comes from a good place. I just hope the people I have tried to protect from unnecessarily worrying and stressing out about my life, do not get wind of any possible hardship.

FYI, Texas is off the table for now. Everything is working out.

Blue Skies Are Gonna Clear Up, Put On A Happy Face!

Things are looking up! This has been a fantastic week! On Wednesday J and I celebrated our second wedding anniversary. He surprised me with the complete series box set of The West Wing. I was super excited! I triple love that show and miss it greatly. Then on Wednesday I cut off all of my hair. It is really cute! It's a sassy little graduated bob. I have not worn it this short in 9 years. The days of the pony tail are gone. Oh how I will miss you!
Today I booked some activities for the family Disney trip. I know it is still 7 months away, but I am so excited! It will be super-duper fantastic. I can't wait!
But the most exciting news of the week is: my cousin C booked a trip for us to go to New York in November to see Eqqus on Broadway! We will also be going to the opening night of Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince. It will be A-MA-ZING!!!!! We are trying to figure out what else we can do while we are there. Any thoughts? I am open to all suggestions.

I miss my ZZZZZZ's

It is 1:06 early Tuesday morning and I can't sleep. In the last 3 days I may have slept a total of 7 hours. Why is this you ask? Well the answer is I am sick with bronchitis and the cough medicine is keeping we awake. I am on my third prescription and nothing has changed. I have even taken this super concentrated liquid that suppose to knock me out for hours. I was warned by my doctor that this would be in my system for 12 hours so I should go to bed as soon as I take it to sleep it off. Well, that didn't happen. I slept 2 hours that night. I am not even sleepy to be honest, but it is making me kind of loopy. I took half of a Xanax a little over an hour ago to see if that may help me, but so for it has not. I don't know how I will be able to go to work tomorrow. I have a 9 hour day that does not end until 6.
You know, it may not be just the cough syrup that is keeping me awake. It may be the combination of the cortisone shot, antibiotics, cough medicine, AND the Adderall! Whatever it is it sucks! I pray that I can get at least 5 hours of sleep tonight. That's all that I am asking for. Oh wait, that won't happen! I would have to fall asleep in the next 30 minutes. Okay, I will shoot for 3 hours. My fingers are crossed.

*UPDATE* I didn't fall asleep until 5 in the morning! J called my boss to let her know what was going on and I didn't have to go into work until noon. Whew! That night I slept for 7 hours. Boy did I need it. I am starting to feel much better. I still can't breathe through my nose, but I am definitely on the mend.

What Now!?!

Oh, the twists and turns of life! Everything seems to be turning upside down. In two weeks time my life can change forever. I just don't know if it is for better or for worse. I want good news! I need good news! Please let this be a positive turning point in my life. I don't know if I can handle anything else.

The Lone Star State = Lonely

It looks like I will be moving soon. By this time next month, I may be living in another state. It is something that I am not happy about, but must be done. J and I have tried everything possible to stay here. Nothing has worked. I will greatly miss Princess V and Prince J. They are the loves of my life. They are growing up so fast and I will hate to miss one second with them. Hopefully, things will improve and J and I can move back in a year or two. Until then, I will have to make the best of my situation.

Reunion

I need to reconnect. Find a common ground. I am no longer the person I once was. I have changed. What is important to me has changed. My focus has shifted.

I like the person I've become.

From Boys to Men

I am old. I am much older than I feel or than I think I am. It's sad really, to one day realize that you are not that young adult you once were. You are now a fully grown adult woman. Sigh! Oh, yesteryear. How I've missed you!
This realization hit me like a ton of bricks one day at work this week. Little Miss K, who is a young college student, is a part time worker at my job. She is really cute, sweet and quiet. I very rarely hear her speak, much less see her become giddy with excitement. Well, that all changed on Thursday. Miss K was all a tither when she saw that a visiting college baseball team was staying at the hotel next to our building. I had the perfect view of their comings and goings, so I invited her to sit down and watch them through the office window. She was all smiles! As I was looking out through the window it hit me, I'm too old for this! Those were little boys out there! The way I viewed them changed. Something shifted. No longer was I the giddy girl fawning over college boys. Their appeal.... gone. However, something did peak my interest.
I turned to Miss K and said, "I'm sorry, but those boys are too young for me to look at, but their coach is kinda cute."